Dear You,
Lately, life hasn’t been going the best for me x I’ve been dealing with family issues left and right and emotional issues that can destroy someone’s ego x There’s been alot going on x
Many times this week I’ve felt like just falling apart-disassembling myself and putting myself back in the box I came in x many times I think to myself “will I ever find that feeling of love?” x People say you’re not suppossed to look for love, its supposed to look for you x which is true x So for now, I’m boycotting x
Love has never been nice to me x Just when I fall for someone, there’s always been that sudden drop on the head; the sudden halt on the brakes that gives me a concussion everytime x
If it makes any sense, I need a break from love x
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Dear You,
Sometimes I wonder if you’re reading these letters x Anyway, today was a difficult day x I didn’t want to get out of bed x Sheer laziness I know, but as lethargic as I was I had good reason to be x I knew that the day was going to be a rough day x Ps x I heard about the loss, I am sorry to hear about what happened x If I could somehow take away all your pain and feelings of sorrow, I would x I wish I could take away your pain x I wish it was as easy as calling me up on the phone like your doctor and getting a refill on a prescription x
The main part is the thought that counts x You make me nervous eventhough all I’ve been doing is writing to you x I feel like I’m going to say the wrong thing or somehow lose your interest x Its a hard road to walk on x I feel like I tread the path well for how I’m doing x I love how we can talk about a random; pointless discussion and be interested in what the other has to say x Yes, you take my breath away x No one else but you x
I hope that my letters ease your pain x I hope they heal you x You mean the world to me x
Love,
Me
Dear you,
It’s me again x I think part of me is addicted to writing letters to you x It lets me vent out to you what I feel x Today was an off day x My mind had me jumbled half of the day x The rain kicked in today for a small time, then went to it’s usual cloudy day with a slight bit of sun x Sometimes I wonder how things would be if the weather all of a sudden went from absolute summer around to a cold winter x I wonder if I could take you home for Christmas x maybe even rewind back in time to take you with me in a marvelous time machine x I imagine way more than i should sometimes, but to contradict that i dont think i imagine enough x
A bird told me you dreamt of me last night, as you were dreaming; i was restlessly day dreaming of you x knowing that somewhere out there you and I are looking at the same moon and same stars, thinking the same things: “I wish you were here” x Nothing could stop me from thinking the reply: “I miss you” x At that moment, I felt the symphony crescendo to a lighter melody x
At that very moment, I cried…
The symphony doesn’t stop playing in my head as I look at your photos x It keeps me reminded of your pretty face x
Dear You,
Somewhere, here I stand writing these letters to an off distance you, I dont think I can emphasize enough how much writing these letters has helped me x It’s a Tuesday on my side of the world and the sun is showing its faded, hungover smile off in sky x The main part about it is that clouds, with their whispy substance grin at me and tease me-I have a feeling it’s about to rain x
Someone once said to me as I walked down the street “you never know which way you’ll go in life until you take a chance and walk it”, but what I say to that is: “The fast dance won’t last, never never means forever, and forever I will walk off into the sunset”. There aren’t very many quick choices in this life that you can promise someone “forever” and when you do cherish every bit of it, because it’s seldom that we find something to believe in x Think of it like Russian Roulette and you only have one bullet in the 6 holed chamber x One bullet to count, 5 open holes x
I hope you understand my letter x I will continue to write to you as time passes x
Love,
Me
Dear you, Today was a complicated day x i had nothing to do x the morning wake up was early then late as i feel back asleep x i woke up again around 4PM and awoke w/ a splitting headache x i went outside & with every single blooming flower, i thought of you x as the sun set i wish it lasted forever so i could watch those clouds glisten again x Love, Me
Dear you,
its me again x i cant express enough how much I wish you were here x maybe im a scary headache for sounding so obsessed with you; which i hope u dont feel like i am, but i miss you x
theres a part of me wanting to tell you every little emotion that streams through my mind as i send these letters to you x i wish that they were more than just letters x i wish they were gifts x
I can’t get my mind off of you x every little simple “hello” is a silver spoon to me x its all i could ever want & the fact that you write more makes it even better x someday I will see you x someday I want to be with you x of course i can’t just say that without knowing how you feel x but the stars are heavy for me x and every last night in this city calls me over to imagining what things could be like x
Indeed x i miss you x thanks for holding me down x
love,
Me
you’re probably wondering “why am i reading this”; my answer is “exactly, why are you?”
Dear you,
Theres many things in this life that i feel like sharing with you x Some things you will understand others you may not x But most of all x I want this word to get out to you x I want you to feel like you can relate to every syllable that is put into all of this x If I could show you what i wish i could, think about how much easier this would all be x Looks like the only way youre going to follow the story is to read x
I want you to be able to open this page & read it like it was every feeling you had stored inside that heart shaped locket in your chest x I want you to know what I feel x
Somewhere in between all of this I find myself x
Have you ever felt like love is a few million miles away?
All of that misery in that question stabs me like a stake into my chest as I await the time that it all starts running down my clothes x I seem to always have that feeling of having a rain cloud above me whenever i need the sun x But more than anything love strikes me down worse than anything x
Its all like a mystery to me x why do the people that you feel love for have to be so far away x Then again, Im venting x
Life in its self is a paradox; and somewhat of a fuck over x Philosophically: Life is what you make it ; Realistically: Life sucks most of the time x thats where I come in x This is the part where Im trying to teach you x How to deal with the bullshit that you are left with x
Sincerely,
Me
